3.10.2010

Pre-CI Jitters

I'm getting my first Level 1 student and trying to beat a case of the pre-CI jitters.

I'm growing out of the "new practitioner" label. I'm on my second job, practiced in multiple settings (sometimes daily) and I'm pretty sure that I pay "big girl" OT prices for AOTA membership now. But of course there are still "firsts," and I am now, finally, getting my first real OT student. I've played hostess to several job-shadow candidates before, but those were usually just for a couple hours. Most of those also came from the local high school and had to rotate through multiple healthcare jobs and were not particularly interested in OT. I missed out on students at my last job because state law required that you have 1 year experience before being a supervisor (or Clinical Instructor... same dif) and the offers for students after that first year didn't coincide with my availability. My current job requires that employees have 1 year experience at the hospital before taking a Level 2 student, and I definitely feel that it is a complex enough environment to learn in the year allotted without additional pressures. But now I feel pretty confident in my navigation of the hospital, finding the right people, getting the right supplies. Onto the next challenge!

I was to get 2 students, one for 1 week straight and another just once a week for several weeks. But we had some shuffling of schedules going around to best allow for shared responsibility and best experiences for students, so now I will just have the one. It does make me a little nervous... the feeling of having to bring the A GAME all day (especially early morning, ugh), be on my best behavior, be smart, and most importantly facilitate learning for the student. I don't usually have a problem with imposter syndrome, but the thought of having a person watching my every move and asking me to then JUSTIFY each one is a bit frightening. There are many things that I understand that I don't know well enough to teach.

So I borrowed a book- a handbook for acute care PT (I know, I KNOW, but there aren't any OT ones available to my knowledge) to brush up on things and try to feel more mastery on the material. It did make me feel better... as my supervisor says "you know more than you know" but there were some frustrating points. I brushed up on causes of common ailments and meanings of lab values since those sorts of imbalances (plus weakness and dementia) make up most of my medicine-floor caseload. I know that I came across a lot of that information in biology classes and physiology class but I didn't retain ALL the implications of certain things. Was I not paying attention the first time or did I just need something practical to relate the knowledge to? Is this comparable to suffering through higher level math with no explanation offered except "you'll use it in calculus/physics," which -while true- is not really a motivating factor? It was a relief to know that I did know the concepts in the book... I'm not just faking it everyday :)

I think that being a CI will be a good time for me to question my skills in a constructive way. Am I educating patients and staff on the role of OT? Am I conducting a thorough evaluation? Are my goals client centered, SMART, and varied? Are my patients getting what they need to facilitate the best possible discharge? It will be a good exercise, but undoubtedly a stressful one.

High levels of critique and reflection would be enough, BUT I'm also changing my schedule again for a short time. I will be covering 2 outpatient pediatric clients while another OT is on leave. It will be good to revive those skills, but it's hard acting as a fill-in. These clients are also older than my former clients (who I still miss *sniff*) so it will be tapping into different occupations- chores, computer use, hair care instead of blocks, buttons, and 1 step commands.

Wish me luck! I hope that I am smarter and more capable than I sometimes think I am. If not, I'm sure my student will let me know :-/ haha


1 comment:

Marla said...

It's best to just be yourself and let the student see that it is okay to not know everything and it's cool to look things up. You can't remember everything. That way, they will be more at ease and so will you. Trying to prove you are perfect will only be a stressful situation for both of you. Focus on teaching what you excel at ie. joint and tissue mobilization, emotional connection with the patient that gains their trust, documentation skills, etc..
Be honest with the student and straight forward. Most of my students have had English as a second language, so the documentation and grammar have been the hardest, as well as, their confidence and fear of hurting someone. All the best, MP